Waits PATIENTLY

I say i wanna wait patiently..
but i cant..
i jus cant wait for EDGE camp and Elevate camp..
EDGE..
John ur going!!!
pls tell me u'll migrate after SPM plsplsplsplspls..
ur the 2nd most hillarious guy i've met i think...
sry but clowns are still funnier..
haha..
chill man..
u always attract troubles wherever u go..
try not to get into too many fights before u leave..
or at least bring me along so i can cover ur butt..
otherwise u might end up hurting 'cough cough'
a certain someone..
xP...
haha..
but the event i am seriously looking forward to..
is seriously Elevate camp..
its in Le Paris..
a 4 star hotel..
how cool is that..
beach, swimming pool, bowling alley, cafe.
what else cld u ask for?
haha..
i tell u..
i am not getting thrown into the pool...
but i might throw someone in instead..
heh..
Jamie mus go ok?
i promise not to throw u in..
'fingers crossed' ladididumdum..
i jus need to get away from home for a little while..
its like..
home has become a cage to me..
parents are limiting my freedom,
haiz..
i need to be free..
i cant stand being held down..
hope that the camp..
will jus allow me to unwind and de-stress..
and try and forget all the unhappiness..
but i do noe that..
Nothing fixes a thing so intensely in the memory as the wish to forget it...
i still feel the hurt quite intensely..
but whatever la..
i need to jus spend some time alone i guess..
an island is what my parents call me..
they blame me for not telling them things..
but i cant..
its not my do...
i jus need to act as if everything is spiff in my life ad hope my life works out..
geez..
my life is really very..
confused, jumbled, a humongous mess is what my life is now..
wish it wld jus sort out..
where's a shoulder to cry on whn u need one?
lol..
i'm in for a real natty-do next year..
SPM the killer of killers..
oh well..
gotta work hard thats all..
heh..
ending here..
Hobey-ho..