Flashbacks...

The year 2009..
has been one of my most hazardous, joyful, sad, mad year in my entire life
i don't really know..
thinking back..
the memories..
i guess some of the highlights are great some of it are killers...
thinking back how January started..
hoping to breeze through Form 4 but thn realized that i cant do that..
now looking back i actually regret a lot of stuf...
but its no used crying over split milk
so i jus have to work hard starting December
so much to learn so much to do..


Thn came the times in school,tuition, XYZ
having fun, meeting new friends,
trusting old friends more..
most of you guys and girls now that i noe..
i realized that when we met,
its weird...
but its not chance haha..
its coincidence xP
jkjk..
you guys have been like my pillars for so long..
I want to especially say a Thank You..
to my 2 Jie's
Hui Xian << Da Jie
Shu Teng << 2nd jie
without you 2 around in school..
i wld have gone back to being crazy in a bad way..
but hanging with you all..
made me become crazy in a REALLY SOT way..
its cool..
i forgive u for making me crazy..
lol..
in XYZ grew a tad closer to Kaylee..
thanks ACL ( assistant cell leader )
ur really a cool one..
haha..
miss talking to you since you went off to Canada..
Come back sooooooooooooooooon
we go eat duck rice xP


I'm happy abt this year though..
i havent fought for a super long time..
not even Taekwondo...
reflexes better not be dulled heh..
if dulled i cry..
lol


Maple..
just started maple this year..
DinastyDevil you guys are the best..
especially Vic and Bun..
next year i'm 100% gonna be inactive..
make sure to miss me k?
haha..
lvl 129 Dark Knight reporting in..
haha..
dun get pass my lvl ok?
wait me..


LOUD 2009
one of the biggest events in XYZ..
i didn't really enjoy it much..
cus frigging stupid exams were on the next day..
DIE!!!!
and also some of my emotions were getting in my way
only certain people noe abt this so shhh..
i think only 2 ppl noe abt this..
u all squeal i'll kill you..
haha..
but i trust you guys..


learning where true strength comes fom is also something awesome i learned..
i learnt that strength doesn't litterally come from ur body..
its all about ur heart, brain, body all working towards the same purpose..
thats whn you're truely strong..


going through all the problems this year has made me wonder alot..
abt whether i'm doing the right thing..
but if its one thing i learned..
This Is The Way It Was Meant To Be..
so all my decisions cld be wrong.
but ultimately its the way it was meant to be..
i cant directly change it..
i have to let it work out like a knot..
and hpe for the best..


yeesh this is a really long post..
thn came the only Holiday i had..
went to Cameron Highlands with family..
but bored my butt of there..
no internet can cry..
but it was ok i guess.
got to jus bum arnd doin nothing jus resting my brain and mt eyes..


learning to open up my locked heart was also quite a life changing experience..
but i'm still in the process.
its like i rather keep things to myself.
cus i dun wanna hurt the ppl i love and care about..
so i have a lot of skeletons in my closet..
dun take that literally my cupboard only has clothes and all black
xP
hehe..


shed a lot of tears also this year..
sleeping thn would suddenly jus cry without knowing why..
i'm a guy..
i;m not supposed to do that..
weird..
yeah..


wonderfull things also happend this year..
haha.
awesome..
parties, fun, going out, movies..
i still miss the times..
but next year i'm gonna make more i pray and hope..


also learnt to be analytical..
everything happens for a cause and there is always a reason.
exclude the impossible, and it will leave you with the truth no matter how improbable it is..


I dunno whether you'll even read this but..
i will keep to my promise..
i'll stand by you k?


what else is there to write?
oh yeah..
learnt to control my rage more..
all due to friends haha..
but my internet still sucks = =
stupid internet..
cant it be repaired properly??
really dumb..


PCG1
Jamie our leader..
I noe sometimes i annoy ur butt off dun deny it..
haha..
but its cus i'm a teenager i guess..
its part of me..
and i need laughs or i sink into depression..
sorry..
so i make lameeeeeeeeeeee jokes..
hehe..
but if u need anything..
jus tell me..
i'd be delighted to help in any way..
but chances of u seeing this are abt
1000000000 to 1
cus u dunno my link haha..
lalala..

Kaylee
ur the one all my insults are always aimed at..
cus u can take it and my insults are true anyway..
haha..
but chilling with you has been really cool..
you've been the one that always TRIES to pull me out of my holeeeeeeeeee
of depression..
but sumtimes failing but u never give up..
haha..
and i thank you for that..
or who knows by know i'd be jumping of a building cus of depression..
haha..
you rock xP
chill chill..
take care and do well in ur finals..
and reply my e-mail !!
haha i'm joking..
take ur time..


marshalls..
Jason Khor our fearless and devoted leader who is going to leave soon..
u'll never read this haha..
u only online to game oni de u ==
thanks for training me to be the next in line..
its a huge responsibility and i'll try my best not to let u down k?
i'll try my best to be a ldr that ppl will look up too..
and make sure they go to the right spots...
haha..
will miss you man..
eventhough ur still around but it jus ain't the same


what in the world else is there to write?
i think i wrote most of the stuff dy isit?
i dunno..
blurring its 12am dy..
hmmmmmm...
ladididumdum..
what else what else..
lalala..
i dunnooooo..
so end here 1st la anything else i'll post it next time..
ciao..
'after exam blues'