Rainy day..

Haha..
today went to XYZ.
nothing to do..
so went with Ryan, Timothy, Tara, Michelle, Sereena to CC..
haha was playing L4D with Michelle and Sereena..
Michelle was screaming so loudly..
cus the tank keep chasing her..
untill Ryan and Tara at the other end of the CC can hear her..
so funny.
thn went and DOTA..
me (troll), Ryan (Raijin), Timothy (Enchantress) 1 team..
Keng Ian (Medusa), Jason (Axe) and another guy (Shadow Fiend)
we owned..
my in game name was Tara..
so they thought gonna be easy to own me cus i was a 'girl'
haha..
thn kena sapu by me..
triple kill and Godlike..
=P
sorry la..
i used my fav hero at the start heh..
thn me and ryan had to go and pick up John.
we had to take a cab from church to his house..
thn before we reach..
the road to his house flooded..
OMG
had to wait for him at the bus stop while he ran out and join us..
whn he arrive it was so late..
we took like 90min to pick him up and go back to church..
so exp!
the fare was RM33.40
crazy..
thn went into church
couldn't concentrate..
playing yu-gi-oh on John's PSP
heh..
what else...
hmm..
EDGE is frigging tomorrow..
21 hours more only..
yay..

Beast

'To protect ourselves and what we hold dear, we keep frightening beasts within ourselves'

Nowadays, everyone in the world, even people who don't look so, actually have a beast inside and live knowing it might come out any minute...
Alot of people are afraid of their own beast and wishes the beast would just dissapear..
But thats not likely to happen...
as long as we're alive, the beast will be with us...
I believe this beast doesn't have to be destroyed..
Its not hard to get used to it...
When the beast inside us bares it fangs, it does it not because its weak, but that something important inside you is threatened, because you are hurt or someone you hold dear is in trouble...
If you realize that and somehow manage to stop it, then I think with your knowledge and your reason, you'll be able to soothe even the most frightening beast..
We all have our own 'Beast Master' some one who calms us down or we feel happy jus by looking at them...
But we will grow and will be able to become our own 'Beast Master' without fail..
I'm sure of it..
So self-control is something we must learn..

Best cure..

ok..
so was having a frigging migrain.. whn i woke up..
in tuition was still ok..
thn when i stepped out into the sun..
bam..
its like someone shot a nail into my head..
beh tahan..
and sumore my personal space was getting invaded..
thn Yuen Ping ( the so unwelcome girl )
asked me why i sat on the chairs that were agaist the wall..
whn my own chair was facing the table..
I din wanna straight tell her that it was cus my personal space was being invaded!
yeesh..
its my fatal flaw..
i feel super uncomfortable whn ppl i dun really know sit close to me..
rushed home..
but in LM..
saw Shu Teng and the gang..
u 2 SPM-ers..
so free de..
can go watch New Moon = =
I wanna watch Ninja assasin..
anyways..
reached home had lunch..
Migrain was still horrible..
tried lying down on the bed din work..
tried everything..
was gonna go take panadol...
thn remembered..
i bought McD Sundae!!!
took it and eat..
aaahh...
ice cream really is the best cure..
the coldness made my migrain feel better..
at least now not as pain..
and i think i'm coming down with the flu..
crap..
as long as it heals before Elevate I dun care!

To catch a rabbit...

The LAPD, The FBI, and the CIA are all trying to prove that they are the best at apprehending criminals. The President decides to give them a test. He releases a rabbit into a forest and each of them has to catch it.
The CIA goes in.
They place animal informants throughout the forest. They question all plant and mineral witnesses. After three months of extensive investigations they conclude that rabbits do not exist.
The FBI goes in.
After two weeks with no leads they burn the forest, killing everything in it, including the rabbit, and they make no apologies. The rabbit had it coming.
The LAPD goes in.
They come out two hours later with a badly beaten bear. The bear is yelling: "Okay! Okay! I'm a rabbit! I'm a rabbit

Growing up

In the short span of these days..

I've come to a conclusion..

I gotta grow up..

Its not gonna have a conclusion..

Its either I'll have to confront it..

Or I can jus let go..

Either way is hard..

So I dunno what am i supposed to do..

The hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what is right for you even if it means breaking someone's heart. Including your own.

breaking ur own heart is never easy..

its plain hard..

its an experience which will make you stronger..

and u aint gonna meet is jus once..

ur gonna experience it quite a few times..

but it'll all work out in the end..

Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.

I'll see how it goes la..

I'll jus wing it..

better survive..

Smile when you are hurting the most

Its no use crying, it'll still hurt

Horrible

4 hours of tuition can kill anyone..
nearly died today T____T..
i survived a day without maple lol..
haha..
tuition was basically quite ok la..
but was quite Zzz..
survived by kacau-ing Yuen Ping..
xP..
thn insult other ppl more!
its fun..
this Thursday gonna do it again!!!
OMG..
I wanna die T_____T
tomorrow 10am tuition again..
Die...
I wanna sleep in la..
havent slept in for a week...
nooooooooooooooooooo..
ladididumdum..
Edge in 5 days..
Elevate in 22 days..
its currently 15min to midnight..
urgh...
blurring aredy..
this comes from not enough sleep...
dun care!!
I do not need sleep..
I will survive..
heh..
Genting..
hope I can go by this year..
I need a thrill rush on the Roller Coaster..
dammit..
going to random topics again..
Geezz...
brain..
pls go back to normal k?

Lousy day..

I bloody gonna destroy streamyx dy..
stupid thing..
today keep bloody dc-ing..
cant even let me read Midori Days and maple properly..
so annoying..
can i kill them?
thn what else happened..
today..
haha..
crap with Princess Joey on facebook...
spam her profile gao gao loo..
hehe..
so fun!
lol..
early morning tuition
3 days in a row..
OMG..
I am so Dead T____________T

'Smiles'

I gotta i gotta i gotta cheer up..
haha..
smiles...
today was quite an ok day for me..
fun and funny...
heh..
thanks Zun Zen for listening to me rant haha...
I havent done that in a long time..
heh..
Get well soon haha...
at least got sum things off my chest..
i gotta be happy..
cant let myself be emo again..
it ain't fun ok..
i noe..
heh..
erm erm erm..
OMG so many assignments to do..
i'm screwed..
sad..
T_T
wish i dunnid to do any..
thn it'd be great and wunderpull...
haha..
still waiting for camp..
hope i still remember how to swim..
thn the funniest things happen yesterday..
cus brandon and sereena bought jelly beans..
thn we eat and eat..
all the weird flavours are in there...
eew..
cinnamon and whatever..
can really make u spit it out..
but i somehow swallowed mine...
haha..
u never know what kind of weird flavours they're gonna throw in jelly beans..
those freaks...
heh..
Sara and Brandon..
hope u 2 had a fun time in 1U haha...

Waits PATIENTLY

I say i wanna wait patiently..
but i cant..
i jus cant wait for EDGE camp and Elevate camp..
EDGE..
John ur going!!!
pls tell me u'll migrate after SPM plsplsplsplspls..
ur the 2nd most hillarious guy i've met i think...
sry but clowns are still funnier..
haha..
chill man..
u always attract troubles wherever u go..
try not to get into too many fights before u leave..
or at least bring me along so i can cover ur butt..
otherwise u might end up hurting 'cough cough'
a certain someone..
xP...
haha..
but the event i am seriously looking forward to..
is seriously Elevate camp..
its in Le Paris..
a 4 star hotel..
how cool is that..
beach, swimming pool, bowling alley, cafe.
what else cld u ask for?
haha..
i tell u..
i am not getting thrown into the pool...
but i might throw someone in instead..
heh..
Jamie mus go ok?
i promise not to throw u in..
'fingers crossed' ladididumdum..
i jus need to get away from home for a little while..
its like..
home has become a cage to me..
parents are limiting my freedom,
haiz..
i need to be free..
i cant stand being held down..
hope that the camp..
will jus allow me to unwind and de-stress..
and try and forget all the unhappiness..
but i do noe that..
Nothing fixes a thing so intensely in the memory as the wish to forget it...
i still feel the hurt quite intensely..
but whatever la..
i need to jus spend some time alone i guess..
an island is what my parents call me..
they blame me for not telling them things..
but i cant..
its not my do...
i jus need to act as if everything is spiff in my life ad hope my life works out..
geez..
my life is really very..
confused, jumbled, a humongous mess is what my life is now..
wish it wld jus sort out..
where's a shoulder to cry on whn u need one?
lol..
i'm in for a real natty-do next year..
SPM the killer of killers..
oh well..
gotta work hard thats all..
heh..
ending here..
Hobey-ho..

Mood : Down

dunno why am i feeling so down nowadays..
i rather be mad or happy..
but i cant haiz..
alot of quotes today.. cus i'm not maple-ing bcus sum ppl said i was slacking in RC..
so time to catch up..

I've found out why people laugh. They laugh because it hurts... because it's the only thing that'll make it stop hurting.

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

I must learn to love the fool in me the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries

Love means exposing yourself to the pain of being hurt, deeply hurt by someone you trust

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

Trying to grow up is hurting, you know. You make mistakes. You try to learn from them, and when you don't, it hurts even more.

Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.

Smile when it hurts most.

You know that when I hate you, it is because I love you to a point of passion that unhinges my soul.

Always listen to experts. They'll tell you what can't be done and why. Then do it.

This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.

You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me, and, even then, you'll be in my heart.

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

Real love hurts, real love makes you totally open and vulnerable. Real love will take you far behind yourself,and therefore real love will devastate you. If love doesn't shatter you, you will not know love

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

I've learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings.

Love that we can not have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest...

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It is the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give. And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.

Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt.

The worst way to miss someone is to have them sitting right next to you and know you can never have them.

It is impossible to fall out of love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart. True love is eternal. If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn't love you were in. There are no 'exit' signs in love, there is only an 'on' ramp.

It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them.

We have a double standard, which is to say, a man can show how much he cares by being violent - see, he's jealous, he cares - a woman shows how much she cares by how much she's willing to be hurt; by how much she will take; how much she will endure.

quotes again

I am loving these quotes..

haha..

they're wunderpull..

lalala..

2 days to the end of school and the start of hols..

thn December start studying T_T

noooooooooooooo..

so sad..

but SPM what to do la..

The day we lose our need for dreams is the day the human race forfeits its soul

Morpheus: Do you believe in fate, Neo? Neo: No. Morpheus: Why not? Neo: Because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life

I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. It's when you know you're licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what.

I think crime pays. The hours are good, you get to travel a lot

There is not enough darkness in all the world to put out the light of even one small candle

Do not stand in a place of danger trusting in miracles

You're welcome to believe that the world is a nice, logical, rational, safe place... You'll be wrong, but that hasn't stopped anyone else who thinks the same way

The cat has always been associated with the Moon. For like the moon, it comes to life at night, escaping from humanity and wandering over housetops with its eyes beaming out through the darkness

Those who fear the darkness have no idea what the light can do

Cats are known to see within the dark. Yet, if you had sight like a cat, even for one day, would you really want to see what's in the dark?

Quotes

was reading through so many quotes..
my eyes are about to pop..
some are funny..
some are meaningfull...
and some are jus plain dumb = =

You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go

If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with.

Let no one who loves be called unhappy. Even love unreturned has its rainbow.

How do you know love is gone? If you said that you would be there at seven and you get there by nine, and he or she has not called the police - it's gone.

Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned.

You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy, even if you're not part of their happiness.

When a love comes to an end, weaklings cry, efficient ones instantly find another love, and the wise already have one in reserve.

There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief. . . and unspeakable love.

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart.

Mood change

really pissed..
my blood is bloody boiling over now..
cant stand this any longer..
i fell like letting the old me stand out now..
its been what.. 2-3 years since i let it out..
wonder how the situation will be..
if i allow myself to go back to my old self..
gawd...
in a really bad mood..
i cant concentrate..
going to sleep..
hope its all a nightmare..

Love..

Love needs courage to say it...
3 simple words (I Love You) but they carry a life time of meaning...
Love always comes in hand with Madness and Blindness...
Love looks past all mistakes and failures and embraces the perfect one within
so don't fall in love unless you're willing to scarifice everything..
and put the other person before yourself..
her needs before ur needs..
her wants before ur wants..
if u cant do that thn forget about love..
couldn't love be simple..
unfortunately it ain't simple at all..
its the most complicated emotion out of all..
but out of all its the emotion that will fuel you in any situation..
Love gives u strength in dire situations..
it helps you to hold on, to keep on living..
bcus u aren't living for urself anymore..
ur living for the other person also..
love is binding..
Love is never selfish..
it is dependant on each other..
Loves strength is not added together to measure ur amount of love u hv for each other..
it is multiplied a hundred fold...
hmm..
so we jus hv to wait for our other half, our soulmate to appear..
why did i type this post anyway???

Time...

what a waste of perfectly good time..
went to school for 3 days straight..
stupid la..
go there do what?
play UNO, and cho dai di oni..
waste my time like hell..
but good laa.
at least i havent lost my touch..
the touch to win cho da di..
wahaha..
prac for XYZ camp..
i'm gonna trash whoever plays against me..
hehe..
gotta get more cards..
need to brush up a bit more..
poker face...
dun let anyone read ur emotions..

I cant wait to pass SPM...
Its gonna be worth it to study..
I wanna drive 300 MPH down the highway..

Need for Speed

I'm getting a Need for Speed..
its like i want everything to be fast..
really cant wait to drive..
i wanna speed down a road at 300 MPH..
that'd be super cool..
seeing the surroundings flash by in a sec..
that'd be nice..

Bloody school and principal

Stupid school..
even stupider principal..
i bloody dun want to go back to school..
so u ask my form teacher to call my mum and force me back to school?
stupid idiot..
bloody..
u took all my frigging letters whn i was sick..
thn now u suddenly tell me all not accepted and that i need to giv u MC
really idiotic
u dunno tell me that whn i gave u the letters?
after what..
8 months thn u tell me..
isn't it a little bloody late?
stupid bloody hell..
thn if i dun go back to school ur gonna expel me?
useless..
never even give surat amaran want to expel me..
i not old enuff to sue only..
otherwise i bloody sue u till u bankrupt..
stupid..

Flashbacks...

The year 2009..
has been one of my most hazardous, joyful, sad, mad year in my entire life
i don't really know..
thinking back..
the memories..
i guess some of the highlights are great some of it are killers...
thinking back how January started..
hoping to breeze through Form 4 but thn realized that i cant do that..
now looking back i actually regret a lot of stuf...
but its no used crying over split milk
so i jus have to work hard starting December
so much to learn so much to do..


Thn came the times in school,tuition, XYZ
having fun, meeting new friends,
trusting old friends more..
most of you guys and girls now that i noe..
i realized that when we met,
its weird...
but its not chance haha..
its coincidence xP
jkjk..
you guys have been like my pillars for so long..
I want to especially say a Thank You..
to my 2 Jie's
Hui Xian << Da Jie
Shu Teng << 2nd jie
without you 2 around in school..
i wld have gone back to being crazy in a bad way..
but hanging with you all..
made me become crazy in a REALLY SOT way..
its cool..
i forgive u for making me crazy..
lol..
in XYZ grew a tad closer to Kaylee..
thanks ACL ( assistant cell leader )
ur really a cool one..
haha..
miss talking to you since you went off to Canada..
Come back sooooooooooooooooon
we go eat duck rice xP


I'm happy abt this year though..
i havent fought for a super long time..
not even Taekwondo...
reflexes better not be dulled heh..
if dulled i cry..
lol


Maple..
just started maple this year..
DinastyDevil you guys are the best..
especially Vic and Bun..
next year i'm 100% gonna be inactive..
make sure to miss me k?
haha..
lvl 129 Dark Knight reporting in..
haha..
dun get pass my lvl ok?
wait me..


LOUD 2009
one of the biggest events in XYZ..
i didn't really enjoy it much..
cus frigging stupid exams were on the next day..
DIE!!!!
and also some of my emotions were getting in my way
only certain people noe abt this so shhh..
i think only 2 ppl noe abt this..
u all squeal i'll kill you..
haha..
but i trust you guys..


learning where true strength comes fom is also something awesome i learned..
i learnt that strength doesn't litterally come from ur body..
its all about ur heart, brain, body all working towards the same purpose..
thats whn you're truely strong..


going through all the problems this year has made me wonder alot..
abt whether i'm doing the right thing..
but if its one thing i learned..
This Is The Way It Was Meant To Be..
so all my decisions cld be wrong.
but ultimately its the way it was meant to be..
i cant directly change it..
i have to let it work out like a knot..
and hpe for the best..


yeesh this is a really long post..
thn came the only Holiday i had..
went to Cameron Highlands with family..
but bored my butt of there..
no internet can cry..
but it was ok i guess.
got to jus bum arnd doin nothing jus resting my brain and mt eyes..


learning to open up my locked heart was also quite a life changing experience..
but i'm still in the process.
its like i rather keep things to myself.
cus i dun wanna hurt the ppl i love and care about..
so i have a lot of skeletons in my closet..
dun take that literally my cupboard only has clothes and all black
xP
hehe..


shed a lot of tears also this year..
sleeping thn would suddenly jus cry without knowing why..
i'm a guy..
i;m not supposed to do that..
weird..
yeah..


wonderfull things also happend this year..
haha.
awesome..
parties, fun, going out, movies..
i still miss the times..
but next year i'm gonna make more i pray and hope..


also learnt to be analytical..
everything happens for a cause and there is always a reason.
exclude the impossible, and it will leave you with the truth no matter how improbable it is..


I dunno whether you'll even read this but..
i will keep to my promise..
i'll stand by you k?


what else is there to write?
oh yeah..
learnt to control my rage more..
all due to friends haha..
but my internet still sucks = =
stupid internet..
cant it be repaired properly??
really dumb..


PCG1
Jamie our leader..
I noe sometimes i annoy ur butt off dun deny it..
haha..
but its cus i'm a teenager i guess..
its part of me..
and i need laughs or i sink into depression..
sorry..
so i make lameeeeeeeeeeee jokes..
hehe..
but if u need anything..
jus tell me..
i'd be delighted to help in any way..
but chances of u seeing this are abt
1000000000 to 1
cus u dunno my link haha..
lalala..

Kaylee
ur the one all my insults are always aimed at..
cus u can take it and my insults are true anyway..
haha..
but chilling with you has been really cool..
you've been the one that always TRIES to pull me out of my holeeeeeeeeee
of depression..
but sumtimes failing but u never give up..
haha..
and i thank you for that..
or who knows by know i'd be jumping of a building cus of depression..
haha..
you rock xP
chill chill..
take care and do well in ur finals..
and reply my e-mail !!
haha i'm joking..
take ur time..


marshalls..
Jason Khor our fearless and devoted leader who is going to leave soon..
u'll never read this haha..
u only online to game oni de u ==
thanks for training me to be the next in line..
its a huge responsibility and i'll try my best not to let u down k?
i'll try my best to be a ldr that ppl will look up too..
and make sure they go to the right spots...
haha..
will miss you man..
eventhough ur still around but it jus ain't the same


what in the world else is there to write?
i think i wrote most of the stuff dy isit?
i dunno..
blurring its 12am dy..
hmmmmmm...
ladididumdum..
what else what else..
lalala..
i dunnooooo..
so end here 1st la anything else i'll post it next time..
ciao..
'after exam blues'

I need risks and excitement

Life is Boring..
whn i dun hv anything to do my life becomes dull...
it becomes black and white..
i'm like just going thru the motions...
its kinda like very calm...
at least it makes me forget some stuff...
but everytime i close my eyes..
my memories come flooding back...
why?
i jus want to forget everything that has happened this year..
except for some which i will hold on forever..
i hope..
MEMORIES..
they're so bittersweet..
this year has been one heck of a year..
next post i think i'll post the highlights of my year heh...
and the sad stuff that happened this year..
i think i shall keep it to myself..
except for only a few ppl who know..
i hope i can remember..
haha..
i;ve been trying to forget so much..
i hope i remember thos precious memories..

Bloody

Bloody hell man...
I slept at 2am woke up 7am..
thn go help ppl move hse for 4 hrs..
super sleepy...
good thing this Sat DBS Jon taught..
at least it was fun and interesting..
otherwise i swear i wld hv gone to sleep right there and thn...
I can eventually play HoN yay = =
but very lazy start training again la..
i need to concentrate..
SPM coming next year..
'slaps self on the face'
concentrate...
ouch..
reminds self, slaps on face hurt...
urghh..
i'm so random right now..
got nothing in my mind..
i noe i shld be sleeping now..
but i cant be bothered...
i wanna keep awake..
dun wanna sleep...
i dunno why...
sleeplessnes = =
haha...
yeah i noe i noe...
i'm an idiot...
haiz...
i really wish i can jus lose myself...
bleh...
jeez...
ladididum..
i think i shall go lie down and cry my eyes out = =
not..
i havent cried..
i've oni shed 1-2 tears..
weird...
so so so so so so weird...
i'm a freak =D
and i dun care..
or mebbe i care..
blehh gonna try and sleep now..
this was supposed to be posted at 2am..
but stupid no iternet..
so yeah post it todat xP

my hols have started...
actually i self declare one la..
but i dunwan to go back to school...
its like i got nothing to do back there..
like i'm wasting my butt off...
really sienz...
so far these past 2 days..
i've oso been wasting my butt off again..
i gotta start doin sumtin..
the only really cool thing i've done today is i read Raven Rise..
From the Pendragon series..
anyone noe it?
dunno go read it..
really cool book..
its the 9th book cant wait for the last book to arrive in Malaysia..
which will take ages...
another book i'm waiting for is Inheritance..
from the Eragon Cycle..
the 4th and shld be best book..
books are gonna make me go bankrupt man ==
saaaaaaaaaddddddddddddd
T_________________________________T
these past few days..
its either my mood is really bad..
or i'm jus easily annoyed..
which is it?
i really dunno..
havent been sleeping well and cant even play well...
this is really unlike me..
i gotta snap out of it..
i've been sleeping at like 2am waking up at 7am...
that is not normal of me...
i miss the old days..
sleeping at 12, waking up at 12
12 hrs of sleep...
i really dunno why i can do it now = =
sienz...
the oni funny thing that happened these 2 days was like...
erm..
this really funny msn conversation..
which happend between..
Shu Teng ( the cyborg), Mae (the criminal), Me(the Private Analytical Detective)
and 2 which didin't contribute much..
haha
Fay Yuen and Jie Wee...
any time u put 3 of us in a convo..
we are so gonna rock ur World..
haha...
hmm sometimes..
I feel my world crumbles...
but its gonna be ok.. I hope..
everyone ahs been telling me its gonna be ok..
but is it really gonna be???
who really knows...
definitely not me...
to me life now shld be exciting,
filled with risks
but these past months..
my life has been boredom..
its like i lost my flame..
the flame that was once so bright..
has now turned black...
really dunno whats wrong with me..
all i noe is...

There's no victory or defeat, there's no higher or lower, there is only one truth...

50min to Midnight. Why am i writing this???

hmm..

I'll stand by you in any situation..

even blocking a cat!

pray the cat dun scratch me...

lol..

too bored dy..

another 14hrs to my freedom..

thn i can sleep and maple 24/7 pls hurry up..

i might go crazy jus waitin T_T