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2010-01-02T06:29:00.001-08:00

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year 2010

2010-01-01T07:17:00.000-08:00

Its gonna be a long year ahead of me..
i'm severing alll my emotions for 2 years
so sorry if i might be cold or an idiot..
i jus need to concentrate..
all problems now cant look at it emotionally..
gotta look at it analytically..
thats all i can say for now..
will update soon after 2moro..

2010

2009-12-31T16:29:00.000-08:00

hmm..
2009 is over so 2010 is here
so many 1st things i did on 1st of Jan 2010
spoke my 1st word of the year to someone
my 1st hug of the year
1st scream of the year
1st insult of the year
1st joke of the year
1st run of the year
but the annoying part is on the 1st of jan aredy had unpleasant things hapening
1st getting pissed of the year
1st scolding of the year
1st annoyance of the year
1st anger of the year
bleh!
hahaha..
might type abt 2009 but very very the lazy.

Christmas!

2009-12-25T06:58:00.000-08:00

went out to church for christmas celebration..
super fun!
thank you for the presents ppl!
they were awesome!
Love you ppl!
haha
Merry Christmas!
had a super fun time chilling with them, talking with them, insulting them, and being chased by 1 person =P
hahaha..
all in all its one of my most enjoyable christmas ever!
thank you!
next year we must celebrate it like that again k?
hahaha..
and congrats to ppl who got straight A's
and those that din get oso.. its cool!
u did ur best and u shld be proud!
=P
29th December Captainball..
anyone else wanna come?
Venue- Dream Centre
Time- 8.30am-12pm
Date- 29th December 2009
If wanna come sms me or sumtin!
erm what else..
oh yeah..
31st December DUMC 30th anniversary dinner..
we shall all have fun and spill food over each other!
=P
erm..
lastly..
you ppl..
you noe who am I talking about..
You all..
tomorrow remember to play nice..
or both groups oso I dunno what I do to you all..
play nice!

Rage

2009-12-23T08:01:00.000-08:00

I thought I lost it..
but it was jus dormant and it became stronger..
I think I injured one of my knuckles dy damn it..
right hand hurts like hell..
crap

Boredom

2009-12-20T07:17:00.000-08:00

So bored at home.. I seriously lazy to blog abt Elevate leh =P
I want to but i dun wan too =P
very lazy..
all i noe is after the camp I super Happy and Relieved..
hahahahahaha..
and I'm laughing for no apparent reason happiness

Special

2009-12-15T01:07:00.000-08:00

This Post specially dedicated to the Girls of TeddyBears
LiYen, Aileen, Naomi and Candace
(i was forced to type this =P)
u all are the best..
seriously..
u girls are super fun to hang with and very sporting oso
haha..
so dun blame me whn i throw u in the pool kay?
=P
erm and i din expect u ppl to actually worry abt some things
but u did..
really cool la..
love u ppl..
mus still love me even if i throw u into the pool okay?

Quotes

2009-12-15T00:17:00.000-08:00

was reading quotes again last night
some are so true

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

You asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said nothing, when you turned around and a tear came down and I whispered to myself... everything is.

Sometimes it's better to be alone. No one can hurt you that way.

I just wonder how many people never get the one they want, but end up with the one they're supposed to have.

Walk home drowning these memories in the rain biting my lip to transfer this pain, your gone and I'm still going through withdrawals, next time around I'll build a stronger wall.

Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow; we must fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision only clears after our eyes are washed away with tears

I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling. I'm not scared of the dark, I'm scared of what's in it. I'm not afraid of love, I'm afraid of not being loved back.

It's really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to stay.

Like being in love there must be a corresponding painful side like losing in love, it's just a fact of life.

Maybe just maybe its my hearts way of telling me this isn't over yet.

I'm gonna smile, because I wanna make you happy, laugh, so you won't see me cry. I'm gonna let you go in style, and even if it kills me, I'm gonna smile.

I would rather leave now still loving you then to leave later hating you.

If you think you've found that one that you really love... make sure they love you back.

the thing that I want you to see the most is that I survived without you.

Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete you.

I lay there at night, trying to fall asleep But each time I close my eyes Memories of you flash through my mind But then I open my eyes and welcome myself back to reality Because I know now, you and I weren't ever really meant to be.

And these break up songs Are making sense again And I really wish they didn't

Today..

2009-12-14T06:47:00.001-08:00

woke up at 9.30..
thn had tuition from 10am to 2pm
my gosh so tiring..
and bored cus Yuen Ping din go so cant insult her..
=P
hahahah..
she see this she gonna kill me..
went home..
it rained heavily..
happy =)
i love the rain..
heh..
msn with TeddyBears
i hate thinking so much la
so many things going on now..
wanna cry dy..
but i wont
jus gotta think everything through..
there has to be a solution.

Late post

2009-12-13T05:10:00.000-08:00

Yesterday..
was fun..
haha..
went early to DC, went to CC and play L4D
with ryan, lu chong and kimberly..
stop shooting me and ryan la lu chong..
my life 80 shot to 50 by him = =
wth weih..
haha..
went for XYZ..
camp briefing..
cant wait for Elevate..
only less than 70 hrs to elevate!!!!!
yay! yay! yay!
its a holday
i'm gonna be throwing ppl into the pool
=P
hehe
thn went for dinner with TeddyBears
i realized i still need to control my anger..
haizz
sad..
went and watch christmas production..
quite ok la..
but i enjoy the previous ones better
haha..
very the lazy blog long long
end here..

Hols are getting me bored

2009-12-09T07:33:00.000-08:00

Why couldn't EDGE last 1 more week..
I'd be so happy la..
T_T
now i'm stuck at home feeling super bored..
oh man = =
Joel u always ffk me lor..
=_=
2 times aredy
u say u on msn at 8pm, u on at 9pm
thn u say u on it at 10pm, now its 11.30pm
u arh..
'shakes head'
nvm..
you will kena..
hehehe..
not by 2moro, you'll kena on Sat..
=P
hahahhaha..
the only life i now hv is on msn and the TeddyBears
talking to Sarah on msn and Tim..
we all lifeless freaks la
haiz..
Elevate hurry up and come pls..
and
Christmas don't be late!

Love them

2009-12-07T07:12:00.001-08:00

From Left
Timothy & Candace, John & Aileen, Joshua & LiYen, Joel & Naomi
I love you guys..
we really bonded in EDGE!
we mus hv our maggi cup moments again k?
haha..
BLOOPERS :
i'm the oni person wearing shoes weih hahaha
funny la..
and Naomi head getting poked by GiGi
=P

EDGE!!!

2009-12-05T18:51:00.000-08:00

I'll jus jump into the details and highlights
haha
very the lazee go intro and bla bla bla

1st day
met in DC at 8am
when reached there
was like blur
cus so few ppl were there
=P
hahaha
so we started shoving food in the van
trying to figure out how to stuff the frigging food in
so cham
but in the end managed la haha
thn had to stuff luggage
so whatever la
in the end everyone legs had luggage there or some where
thn the trip started
as soon as get in the van
music starts
i turned mine up the whole way and was at full blast
so that I cld sleep =P
I din realize i was sleeping on a box of biscuits =_=
heh
but nvm la
so whn we reached the 1st destination
had to get out and pray for a description to find some ppl
a lot of them found them
I din find mine T___T
thn went for lunch
Lunch was super yummy
haha
thn headed for the training center
woah
the space there is unbelievable
so much space to run like crazeeeeeeeeeeee
thn me, Hillary, Timothy, Wendy helped Joanna
to pack food into individual bags
super fun
Wendy's fav saying is most probaly 'You no brains la!'
haha
after that headed to the Orang Asli (OA) kampung
they're super cool people..
sorry cant post pics of them
its to take care of their security T_T
but they are super cute la the small kids
=P
thn went for dinner
and a little debrief
and prac
at 8.45 had a 'counselling session' between me, Joel, and John
we had our most awesome Jody and his wife Joanna there
talked for a long time about 2hrs30min
woah..
but ok la..
thn went and bath
after that spent some time talking to Naomi, Aileen, LiYen, Candace, Joel, John in the living room..
the girls are really cool people
never realized that cus never talk to them
love you people..
you're the best
crapped till about 1.30am
thn the girls headed to bed..
me,Joel and John stayed awake till i think 2am thn slept in the living room cus it was cooler than the rooms

2 day
woke up at 6.30,
waited for the people to wake up cus nothing better to do..
it was raining my fav weather ( i think)
haha
anyways had breakfast and thn chilled about, listened to Josh our Great teacher,
and his wife the wonderful Vivien =P
they have 2 really cute kids..
Sophia and Faith
haha.
they're pics will be on FB loo..
ladidi
erm what else
oh yeah headed to lunch thn to the OA kampung again
I slept in the van again =_=
sleepyness
when reached there, played games with them,
sang some songs and played more with them
thn went back for dinner
this here is the highlight of the evening!
we played Captainball with them
super fun
i discover that i get rage at the start thn after than i start coolong down
thn become deadly calm
thats whn i really analize every detail
seeing who has open spots and so on
so cool
heh
I never wanna play ball with Naomi again
I got knocked over so much by her that i had bruises weih
pain lor
we played for i tink about 2hrs?
thn went back showered thn
had our Maggi Cup Moment!
so niceee
we have it in Elevate again ok?
hehe..
we crapped a lot
crapped till abt 4am
thn everyone went to sleep in the living room
haha

3rd day
went back DC
we were going nuts
eh Aileen faster upload the pics..
But I look retarded =_=
haha
we took pics with our people
the ones we swapped tags with super funny
i think I'll list it out here la
LiYen-Joshua(me)
Aileen-John
Candace-Timothy
Naomi-Joel
this is all i think
we were going nuts in ZC heh
funny!!!
thn what else
erm..
oh yeah
did the groups and rooms for Elevate
so fun ^^
I'l also a group leader =_=
haha
sleepedi sleep
went back home at 10.30
slept all the way
thn now its 11.25 and i jus finished the blog..
lalala..

Camp is tomorrow!

2009-12-02T07:28:00.001-08:00

Whee..
today was a super dy fun day..
haha..
crap and talked and laughed till had stomach pain!..
was crapping with John and the rest..
we swapped name tags =P
So these are our names now..
John-Aileen
Aileen-John
LiYen-Me
Me-LiYen
hahaha..
laughed was cus they were practising skit..
super funny..
will upload the video soon on facebook..
whoever saw it cant help but laugh..
the OA ppl will think we're a bunch of freaks walking in..
heh..
need to wake up 6am 2molo..
thn camp time..
yahoo....

EDGE

2009-12-01T06:10:00.000-08:00

I think will blog today la..
1st things 1st..
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPY!!!
woke up at 7am in the frigging morning..
oh Gawd sleepyness..
but was worth it la..
its really a cool course...

DAY 1 (Monday)
Met the trainers..
they're really super cool people..
u cant help but like them..
their always willing to help out here and there,
coaching us thru thick and thin.
thank you ya'll..
haha
had the usual bla bla bla..
really lazy to type man = =
so tired..
but all in all was ok on the 1st day..
listened to Ring Ding Dong like 6 times a day?
haha
funny la..
took pictures and everything..
I'll upload it on Saturday or Sunday..
so that all the pictures 2geda on FB..
whee...

DAY 2
Even better than day 1..
loved every single second of it..
sososoososo cool..
thn after that in the afternoon we were talking about the camp stuff..
I tell you..
I never realized I had so many insults and wisecracks in me..
anything they say I can manage to return a comment that is so ridicoulos..
hahahaha..
I'm also official Photographer for camp ^^
so easy me..
I jus keep taking photos..
ladididumdum
thats all i guess..
heh..

Rainy day..

2009-11-28T05:38:00.000-08:00

Haha..
today went to XYZ.
nothing to do..
so went with Ryan, Timothy, Tara, Michelle, Sereena to CC..
haha was playing L4D with Michelle and Sereena..
Michelle was screaming so loudly..
cus the tank keep chasing her..
untill Ryan and Tara at the other end of the CC can hear her..
so funny.
thn went and DOTA..
me (troll), Ryan (Raijin), Timothy (Enchantress) 1 team..
Keng Ian (Medusa), Jason (Axe) and another guy (Shadow Fiend)
we owned..
my in game name was Tara..
so they thought gonna be easy to own me cus i was a 'girl'
haha..
thn kena sapu by me..
triple kill and Godlike..
=P
sorry la..
i used my fav hero at the start heh..
thn me and ryan had to go and pick up John.
we had to take a cab from church to his house..
thn before we reach..
the road to his house flooded..
OMG
had to wait for him at the bus stop while he ran out and join us..
whn he arrive it was so late..
we took like 90min to pick him up and go back to church..
so exp!
the fare was RM33.40
crazy..
thn went into church
couldn't concentrate..
playing yu-gi-oh on John's PSP
heh..
what else...
hmm..
EDGE is frigging tomorrow..
21 hours more only..
yay..

Beast

2009-11-27T01:45:00.001-08:00

'To protect ourselves and what we hold dear, we keep frightening beasts within ourselves'

Nowadays, everyone in the world, even people who don't look so, actually have a beast inside and live knowing it might come out any minute...
Alot of people are afraid of their own beast and wishes the beast would just dissapear..
But thats not likely to happen...
as long as we're alive, the beast will be with us...
I believe this beast doesn't have to be destroyed..
Its not hard to get used to it...
When the beast inside us bares it fangs, it does it not because its weak, but that something important inside you is threatened, because you are hurt or someone you hold dear is in trouble...
If you realize that and somehow manage to stop it, then I think with your knowledge and your reason, you'll be able to soothe even the most frightening beast..
We all have our own 'Beast Master' some one who calms us down or we feel happy jus by looking at them...
But we will grow and will be able to become our own 'Beast Master' without fail..
I'm sure of it..
So self-control is something we must learn..

Best cure..

2009-11-26T01:13:00.000-08:00

ok..
so was having a frigging migrain.. whn i woke up..
in tuition was still ok..
thn when i stepped out into the sun..
bam..
its like someone shot a nail into my head..
beh tahan..
and sumore my personal space was getting invaded..
thn Yuen Ping ( the so unwelcome girl )
asked me why i sat on the chairs that were agaist the wall..
whn my own chair was facing the table..
I din wanna straight tell her that it was cus my personal space was being invaded!
yeesh..
its my fatal flaw..
i feel super uncomfortable whn ppl i dun really know sit close to me..
rushed home..
but in LM..
saw Shu Teng and the gang..
u 2 SPM-ers..
so free de..
can go watch New Moon = =
I wanna watch Ninja assasin..
anyways..
reached home had lunch..
Migrain was still horrible..
tried lying down on the bed din work..
tried everything..
was gonna go take panadol...
thn remembered..
i bought McD Sundae!!!
took it and eat..
aaahh...
ice cream really is the best cure..
the coldness made my migrain feel better..
at least now not as pain..
and i think i'm coming down with the flu..
crap..
as long as it heals before Elevate I dun care!

To catch a rabbit...

2009-11-25T03:39:00.001-08:00

The LAPD, The FBI, and the CIA are all trying to prove that they are the best at apprehending criminals. The President decides to give them a test. He releases a rabbit into a forest and each of them has to catch it.
The CIA goes in.
They place animal informants throughout the forest. They question all plant and mineral witnesses. After three months of extensive investigations they conclude that rabbits do not exist.
The FBI goes in.
After two weeks with no leads they burn the forest, killing everything in it, including the rabbit, and they make no apologies. The rabbit had it coming.
The LAPD goes in.
They come out two hours later with a badly beaten bear. The bear is yelling: "Okay! Okay! I'm a rabbit! I'm a rabbit

Growing up

2009-11-25T01:28:00.000-08:00

In the short span of these days..

I've come to a conclusion..

I gotta grow up..

Its not gonna have a conclusion..

Its either I'll have to confront it..

Or I can jus let go..

Either way is hard..

So I dunno what am i supposed to do..

The hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what is right for you even if it means breaking someone's heart. Including your own.

breaking ur own heart is never easy..

its plain hard..

its an experience which will make you stronger..

and u aint gonna meet is jus once..

ur gonna experience it quite a few times..

but it'll all work out in the end..

Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.

I'll see how it goes la..

I'll jus wing it..

better survive..

Smile when you are hurting the most

Its no use crying, it'll still hurt

Horrible

2009-11-24T07:40:00.000-08:00

4 hours of tuition can kill anyone..
nearly died today T____T..
i survived a day without maple lol..
haha..
tuition was basically quite ok la..
but was quite Zzz..
survived by kacau-ing Yuen Ping..
xP..
thn insult other ppl more!
its fun..
this Thursday gonna do it again!!!
OMG..
I wanna die T_____T
tomorrow 10am tuition again..
Die...
I wanna sleep in la..
havent slept in for a week...
nooooooooooooooooooo..
ladididumdum..
Edge in 5 days..
Elevate in 22 days..
its currently 15min to midnight..
urgh...
blurring aredy..
this comes from not enough sleep...
dun care!!
I do not need sleep..
I will survive..
heh..
Genting..
hope I can go by this year..
I need a thrill rush on the Roller Coaster..
dammit..
going to random topics again..
Geezz...
brain..
pls go back to normal k?

Lousy day..

2009-11-23T07:12:00.001-08:00

I bloody gonna destroy streamyx dy..
stupid thing..
today keep bloody dc-ing..
cant even let me read Midori Days and maple properly..
so annoying..
can i kill them?
thn what else happened..
today..
haha..
crap with Princess Joey on facebook...
spam her profile gao gao loo..
hehe..
so fun!
lol..
early morning tuition
3 days in a row..
OMG..
I am so Dead T____________T

'Smiles'

2009-11-22T07:37:00.000-08:00

I gotta i gotta i gotta cheer up..
haha..
smiles...
today was quite an ok day for me..
fun and funny...
heh..
thanks Zun Zen for listening to me rant haha...
I havent done that in a long time..
heh..
Get well soon haha...
at least got sum things off my chest..
i gotta be happy..
cant let myself be emo again..
it ain't fun ok..
i noe..
heh..
erm erm erm..
OMG so many assignments to do..
i'm screwed..
sad..
T_T
wish i dunnid to do any..
thn it'd be great and wunderpull...
haha..
still waiting for camp..
hope i still remember how to swim..
thn the funniest things happen yesterday..
cus brandon and sereena bought jelly beans..
thn we eat and eat..
all the weird flavours are in there...
eew..
cinnamon and whatever..
can really make u spit it out..
but i somehow swallowed mine...
haha..
u never know what kind of weird flavours they're gonna throw in jelly beans..
those freaks...
heh..
Sara and Brandon..
hope u 2 had a fun time in 1U haha...

Waits PATIENTLY

2009-11-21T08:05:00.000-08:00

I say i wanna wait patiently..
but i cant..
i jus cant wait for EDGE camp and Elevate camp..
EDGE..
John ur going!!!
pls tell me u'll migrate after SPM plsplsplsplspls..
ur the 2nd most hillarious guy i've met i think...
sry but clowns are still funnier..
haha..
chill man..
u always attract troubles wherever u go..
try not to get into too many fights before u leave..
or at least bring me along so i can cover ur butt..
otherwise u might end up hurting 'cough cough'
a certain someone..
xP...
haha..
but the event i am seriously looking forward to..
is seriously Elevate camp..
its in Le Paris..
a 4 star hotel..
how cool is that..
beach, swimming pool, bowling alley, cafe.
what else cld u ask for?
haha..
i tell u..
i am not getting thrown into the pool...
but i might throw someone in instead..
heh..
Jamie mus go ok?
i promise not to throw u in..
'fingers crossed' ladididumdum..
i jus need to get away from home for a little while..
its like..
home has become a cage to me..
parents are limiting my freedom,
haiz..
i need to be free..
i cant stand being held down..
hope that the camp..
will jus allow me to unwind and de-stress..
and try and forget all the unhappiness..
but i do noe that..
Nothing fixes a thing so intensely in the memory as the wish to forget it...
i still feel the hurt quite intensely..
but whatever la..
i need to jus spend some time alone i guess..
an island is what my parents call me..
they blame me for not telling them things..
but i cant..
its not my do...
i jus need to act as if everything is spiff in my life ad hope my life works out..
geez..
my life is really very..
confused, jumbled, a humongous mess is what my life is now..
wish it wld jus sort out..
where's a shoulder to cry on whn u need one?
lol..
i'm in for a real natty-do next year..
SPM the killer of killers..
oh well..
gotta work hard thats all..
heh..
ending here..
Hobey-ho..

Mood : Down

2009-11-20T06:08:00.000-08:00

dunno why am i feeling so down nowadays..
i rather be mad or happy..
but i cant haiz..
alot of quotes today.. cus i'm not maple-ing bcus sum ppl said i was slacking in RC..
so time to catch up..

I've found out why people laugh. They laugh because it hurts... because it's the only thing that'll make it stop hurting.

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

I must learn to love the fool in me the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries

Love means exposing yourself to the pain of being hurt, deeply hurt by someone you trust

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

Trying to grow up is hurting, you know. You make mistakes. You try to learn from them, and when you don't, it hurts even more.

Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.

Smile when it hurts most.

You know that when I hate you, it is because I love you to a point of passion that unhinges my soul.

Always listen to experts. They'll tell you what can't be done and why. Then do it.

This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.

You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me, and, even then, you'll be in my heart.

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

Real love hurts, real love makes you totally open and vulnerable. Real love will take you far behind yourself,and therefore real love will devastate you. If love doesn't shatter you, you will not know love

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

I've learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings.

Love that we can not have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest...

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It is the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give. And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.

Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt.

The worst way to miss someone is to have them sitting right next to you and know you can never have them.

It is impossible to fall out of love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart. True love is eternal. If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn't love you were in. There are no 'exit' signs in love, there is only an 'on' ramp.

It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them.

We have a double standard, which is to say, a man can show how much he cares by being violent - see, he's jealous, he cares - a woman shows how much she cares by how much she's willing to be hurt; by how much she will take; how much she will endure.

quotes again

2009-11-18T06:58:00.001-08:00

I am loving these quotes..

haha..

they're wunderpull..

lalala..

2 days to the end of school and the start of hols..

thn December start studying T_T

noooooooooooooo..

so sad..

but SPM what to do la..

The day we lose our need for dreams is the day the human race forfeits its soul

Morpheus: Do you believe in fate, Neo? Neo: No. Morpheus: Why not? Neo: Because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life

I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. It's when you know you're licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what.

I think crime pays. The hours are good, you get to travel a lot

There is not enough darkness in all the world to put out the light of even one small candle

Do not stand in a place of danger trusting in miracles

You're welcome to believe that the world is a nice, logical, rational, safe place... You'll be wrong, but that hasn't stopped anyone else who thinks the same way

The cat has always been associated with the Moon. For like the moon, it comes to life at night, escaping from humanity and wandering over housetops with its eyes beaming out through the darkness

Those who fear the darkness have no idea what the light can do

Cats are known to see within the dark. Yet, if you had sight like a cat, even for one day, would you really want to see what's in the dark?

Quotes

2009-11-16T01:17:00.000-08:00

was reading through so many quotes..
my eyes are about to pop..
some are funny..
some are meaningfull...
and some are jus plain dumb = =

You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go

If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with.

Let no one who loves be called unhappy. Even love unreturned has its rainbow.

How do you know love is gone? If you said that you would be there at seven and you get there by nine, and he or she has not called the police - it's gone.

Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned.

You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy, even if you're not part of their happiness.

When a love comes to an end, weaklings cry, efficient ones instantly find another love, and the wise already have one in reserve.

There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief. . . and unspeakable love.

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart.

Mood change

2009-11-14T08:08:00.000-08:00

really pissed..
my blood is bloody boiling over now..
cant stand this any longer..
i fell like letting the old me stand out now..
its been what.. 2-3 years since i let it out..
wonder how the situation will be..
if i allow myself to go back to my old self..
gawd...
in a really bad mood..
i cant concentrate..
going to sleep..
hope its all a nightmare..

Love..

2009-11-14T06:10:00.001-08:00

Love needs courage to say it...
3 simple words (I Love You) but they carry a life time of meaning...
Love always comes in hand with Madness and Blindness...
Love looks past all mistakes and failures and embraces the perfect one within
so don't fall in love unless you're willing to scarifice everything..
and put the other person before yourself..
her needs before ur needs..
her wants before ur wants..
if u cant do that thn forget about love..
couldn't love be simple..
unfortunately it ain't simple at all..
its the most complicated emotion out of all..
but out of all its the emotion that will fuel you in any situation..
Love gives u strength in dire situations..
it helps you to hold on, to keep on living..
bcus u aren't living for urself anymore..
ur living for the other person also..
love is binding..
Love is never selfish..
it is dependant on each other..
Loves strength is not added together to measure ur amount of love u hv for each other..
it is multiplied a hundred fold...
hmm..
so we jus hv to wait for our other half, our soulmate to appear..
why did i type this post anyway???

Time...

2009-11-13T08:24:00.000-08:00

what a waste of perfectly good time..
went to school for 3 days straight..
stupid la..
go there do what?
play UNO, and cho dai di oni..
waste my time like hell..
but good laa.
at least i havent lost my touch..
the touch to win cho da di..
wahaha..
prac for XYZ camp..
i'm gonna trash whoever plays against me..
hehe..
gotta get more cards..
need to brush up a bit more..
poker face...
dun let anyone read ur emotions..

I cant wait to pass SPM...
Its gonna be worth it to study..
I wanna drive 300 MPH down the highway..

Need for Speed

2009-11-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

I'm getting a Need for Speed..
its like i want everything to be fast..
really cant wait to drive..
i wanna speed down a road at 300 MPH..
that'd be super cool..
seeing the surroundings flash by in a sec..
that'd be nice..

Bloody school and principal

2009-11-10T04:49:00.000-08:00

Stupid school..
even stupider principal..
i bloody dun want to go back to school..
so u ask my form teacher to call my mum and force me back to school?
stupid idiot..
bloody..
u took all my frigging letters whn i was sick..
thn now u suddenly tell me all not accepted and that i need to giv u MC
really idiotic
u dunno tell me that whn i gave u the letters?
after what..
8 months thn u tell me..
isn't it a little bloody late?
stupid bloody hell..
thn if i dun go back to school ur gonna expel me?
useless..
never even give surat amaran want to expel me..
i not old enuff to sue only..
otherwise i bloody sue u till u bankrupt..
stupid..

Flashbacks...

2009-11-09T07:31:00.000-08:00

The year 2009..
has been one of my most hazardous, joyful, sad, mad year in my entire life
i don't really know..
thinking back..
the memories..
i guess some of the highlights are great some of it are killers...
thinking back how January started..
hoping to breeze through Form 4 but thn realized that i cant do that..
now looking back i actually regret a lot of stuf...
but its no used crying over split milk
so i jus have to work hard starting December
so much to learn so much to do..

Thn came the times in school,tuition, XYZ
having fun, meeting new friends,
trusting old friends more..
most of you guys and girls now that i noe..
i realized that when we met,
its weird...
but its not chance haha..
its coincidence xP
jkjk..
you guys have been like my pillars for so long..
I want to especially say a Thank You..
to my 2 Jie's
Hui Xian << Da Jie
Shu Teng << 2nd jie
without you 2 around in school..
i wld have gone back to being crazy in a bad way..
but hanging with you all..
made me become crazy in a REALLY SOT way..
its cool..
i forgive u for making me crazy..
lol..
in XYZ grew a tad closer to Kaylee..
thanks ACL ( assistant cell leader )
ur really a cool one..
haha..
miss talking to you since you went off to Canada..
Come back sooooooooooooooooon
we go eat duck rice xP

I'm happy abt this year though..
i havent fought for a super long time..
not even Taekwondo...
reflexes better not be dulled heh..
if dulled i cry..
lol

Maple..
just started maple this year..
DinastyDevil you guys are the best..
especially Vic and Bun..
next year i'm 100% gonna be inactive..
make sure to miss me k?
haha..
lvl 129 Dark Knight reporting in..
haha..
dun get pass my lvl ok?
wait me..

LOUD 2009
one of the biggest events in XYZ..
i didn't really enjoy it much..
cus frigging stupid exams were on the next day..
DIE!!!!
and also some of my emotions were getting in my way
only certain people noe abt this so shhh..
i think only 2 ppl noe abt this..
u all squeal i'll kill you..
haha..
but i trust you guys..

learning where true strength comes fom is also something awesome i learned..
i learnt that strength doesn't litterally come from ur body..
its all about ur heart, brain, body all working towards the same purpose..
thats whn you're truely strong..

going through all the problems this year has made me wonder alot..
abt whether i'm doing the right thing..
but if its one thing i learned..
This Is The Way It Was Meant To Be..
so all my decisions cld be wrong.
but ultimately its the way it was meant to be..
i cant directly change it..
i have to let it work out like a knot..
and hpe for the best..

yeesh this is a really long post..
thn came the only Holiday i had..
went to Cameron Highlands with family..
but bored my butt of there..
no internet can cry..
but it was ok i guess.
got to jus bum arnd doin nothing jus resting my brain and mt eyes..

learning to open up my locked heart was also quite a life changing experience..
but i'm still in the process.
its like i rather keep things to myself.
cus i dun wanna hurt the ppl i love and care about..
so i have a lot of skeletons in my closet..
dun take that literally my cupboard only has clothes and all black
xP
hehe..

shed a lot of tears also this year..
sleeping thn would suddenly jus cry without knowing why..
i'm a guy..
i;m not supposed to do that..
weird..
yeah..

wonderfull things also happend this year..
haha.
awesome..
parties, fun, going out, movies..
i still miss the times..
but next year i'm gonna make more i pray and hope..

also learnt to be analytical..
everything happens for a cause and there is always a reason.
exclude the impossible, and it will leave you with the truth no matter how improbable it is..

I dunno whether you'll even read this but..
i will keep to my promise..
i'll stand by you k?

what else is there to write?
oh yeah..
learnt to control my rage more..
all due to friends haha..
but my internet still sucks = =
stupid internet..
cant it be repaired properly??
really dumb..

PCG1
Jamie our leader..
I noe sometimes i annoy ur butt off dun deny it..
haha..
but its cus i'm a teenager i guess..
its part of me..
and i need laughs or i sink into depression..
sorry..
so i make lameeeeeeeeeeee jokes..
hehe..
but if u need anything..
jus tell me..
i'd be delighted to help in any way..
but chances of u seeing this are abt
1000000000 to 1
cus u dunno my link haha..
lalala..

Kaylee
ur the one all my insults are always aimed at..
cus u can take it and my insults are true anyway..
haha..
but chilling with you has been really cool..
you've been the one that always TRIES to pull me out of my holeeeeeeeeee
of depression..
but sumtimes failing but u never give up..
haha..
and i thank you for that..
or who knows by know i'd be jumping of a building cus of depression..
haha..
you rock xP
chill chill..
take care and do well in ur finals..
and reply my e-mail !!
haha i'm joking..
take ur time..

marshalls..
Jason Khor our fearless and devoted leader who is going to leave soon..
u'll never read this haha..
u only online to game oni de u ==
thanks for training me to be the next in line..
its a huge responsibility and i'll try my best not to let u down k?
i'll try my best to be a ldr that ppl will look up too..
and make sure they go to the right spots...
haha..
will miss you man..
eventhough ur still around but it jus ain't the same

what in the world else is there to write?
i think i wrote most of the stuff dy isit?
i dunno..
blurring its 12am dy..
hmmmmmm...
ladididumdum..
what else what else..
lalala..
i dunnooooo..
so end here 1st la anything else i'll post it next time..
ciao..
'after exam blues'

I need risks and excitement

2009-11-08T07:14:00.000-08:00

Life is Boring..
whn i dun hv anything to do my life becomes dull...
it becomes black and white..
i'm like just going thru the motions...
its kinda like very calm...
at least it makes me forget some stuff...
but everytime i close my eyes..
my memories come flooding back...
why?
i jus want to forget everything that has happened this year..
except for some which i will hold on forever..
i hope..
MEMORIES..
they're so bittersweet..
this year has been one heck of a year..
next post i think i'll post the highlights of my year heh...
and the sad stuff that happened this year..
i think i shall keep it to myself..
except for only a few ppl who know..
i hope i can remember..
haha..
i;ve been trying to forget so much..
i hope i remember thos precious memories..

Bloody

2009-11-07T18:41:00.000-08:00

Bloody hell man...
I slept at 2am woke up 7am..
thn go help ppl move hse for 4 hrs..
super sleepy...
good thing this Sat DBS Jon taught..
at least it was fun and interesting..
otherwise i swear i wld hv gone to sleep right there and thn...
I can eventually play HoN yay = =
but very lazy start training again la..
i need to concentrate..
SPM coming next year..
'slaps self on the face'
concentrate...
ouch..
reminds self, slaps on face hurt...
urghh..
i'm so random right now..
got nothing in my mind..
i noe i shld be sleeping now..
but i cant be bothered...
i wanna keep awake..
dun wanna sleep...
i dunno why...
sleeplessnes = =
haha...
yeah i noe i noe...
i'm an idiot...
haiz...
i really wish i can jus lose myself...
bleh...
jeez...
ladididum..
i think i shall go lie down and cry my eyes out = =
not..
i havent cried..
i've oni shed 1-2 tears..
weird...
so so so so so so weird...
i'm a freak =D
and i dun care..
or mebbe i care..
blehh gonna try and sleep now..
this was supposed to be posted at 2am..
but stupid no iternet..
so yeah post it todat xP

2009-11-06T08:08:00.000-08:00

my hols have started...
actually i self declare one la..
but i dunwan to go back to school...
its like i got nothing to do back there..
like i'm wasting my butt off...
really sienz...
so far these past 2 days..
i've oso been wasting my butt off again..
i gotta start doin sumtin..
the only really cool thing i've done today is i read Raven Rise..
From the Pendragon series..
anyone noe it?
dunno go read it..
really cool book..
its the 9th book cant wait for the last book to arrive in Malaysia..
which will take ages...
another book i'm waiting for is Inheritance..
from the Eragon Cycle..
the 4th and shld be best book..
books are gonna make me go bankrupt man ==
saaaaaaaaaddddddddddddd
T_________________________________T
these past few days..
its either my mood is really bad..
or i'm jus easily annoyed..
which is it?
i really dunno..
havent been sleeping well and cant even play well...
this is really unlike me..
i gotta snap out of it..
i've been sleeping at like 2am waking up at 7am...
that is not normal of me...
i miss the old days..
sleeping at 12, waking up at 12
12 hrs of sleep...
i really dunno why i can do it now = =
sienz...
the oni funny thing that happened these 2 days was like...
erm..
this really funny msn conversation..
which happend between..
Shu Teng ( the cyborg), Mae (the criminal), Me(the Private Analytical Detective)
and 2 which didin't contribute much..
haha
Fay Yuen and Jie Wee...
any time u put 3 of us in a convo..
we are so gonna rock ur World..
haha...
hmm sometimes..
I feel my world crumbles...
but its gonna be ok.. I hope..
everyone ahs been telling me its gonna be ok..
but is it really gonna be???
who really knows...
definitely not me...
to me life now shld be exciting,
filled with risks
but these past months..
my life has been boredom..
its like i lost my flame..
the flame that was once so bright..
has now turned black...
really dunno whats wrong with me..
all i noe is...

There's no victory or defeat, there's no higher or lower, there is only one truth...

50min to Midnight. Why am i writing this???

2009-11-03T07:10:00.000-08:00

hmm..

I'll stand by you in any situation..

even blocking a cat!

pray the cat dun scratch me...

lol..

too bored dy..

another 14hrs to my freedom..

thn i can sleep and maple 24/7 pls hurry up..

i might go crazy jus waitin T_T

Its decided

2009-10-31T08:01:00.000-07:00

I give up..
I cant stand it anymore..
I take anymore of this, I'm gonna wind up screwed in the head..
so I officially give up..
not gonna bother..
jus gonna wait and see how..
If its 1 thing i learned I guess its..
only a fool would follow hs heart...
but I guess that what I am..
an idiot..
for not figuring this out earlier..
now I dunno what to trust..
my head and my heart are in different places..
dunno la..

I GIVE UP!!!

Woots Air Gear is back

2009-10-22T07:41:00.000-07:00

So awesome!!!
Storm King (Ikki) reveals his regalia,
Flame King (Kazu) and Fang King (Akito & Agito)
combo for an awesome move..

IF

2009-10-19T02:37:00.000-07:00

If I were to say ILY, What would u say? Yes? No? walk away without a sound? I dunno

New..

2009-10-18T07:14:00.000-07:00

I can hardly believe it..
my parents actually are discouraging me from being a vet..
wth man...
whatever la..
they say what its too long a course..
5 yrs is too long and bla bla bla...
annoying..
havent been in good moods lately..
mus be the exam stress n other stuff..
wish it were over faster..
anyways..
if cant be a vet..
i got a new job in mind..
a private detective...
or a thief..
thats quite cool too...
heh like the guy at the top there..
that'd be cool..
but all jus dreams la..
will never come true...

Happy days for others..

2009-10-13T00:56:00.000-07:00

Pmr-ers most probaly happy dy haha..
PMR over nothing to worry about anymore can chill and relax..
u all can go nuts dy..
heh..
gawd..
we form 4 still cant go crazy..
still need pas stupid finals...
after that..
we oso can go crazy i hope..
i noe i am gonna release not even go back to school..
stupid school..
they should abolish school..
learn everything from tuition more worth it..
haha..
man, i'm really sleepy..
to DinastyDevil members..
especially vic and Bun..
cant on yet, maple got prob..
as soon as can on i will on..
redl-ing the whole thing...
so for the time being..
cant maple T_T..
sad..
I quit DOTA dy loo..
wait HoN to come out thn oni start training in HoN again..
but Maple shall always come 1st heh..
guild better get strong man..
otherwise its boring...
anyways confirm 4 november as soon as i sell off my SoK black belt,
i'll train or leech as fast as i can haha..
cya guys thn..

Diversity Dance Crew

2009-10-11T18:51:00.000-07:00

They have got to be one of the most amazing dancers out there

lonely walk

2009-09-22T07:33:00.000-07:00

I'm like walking in the midst of frens, family and strangers..
but i still feel so lonely..
i cant help it..
sometimes i jus wish i cld fly away from here and never come back...
i cant believe this but,
i've been nearly crying myself to sleep every night..
i think the stress has finally hit me..
haiz..
life hit u hell hard whn u reach 16 and gonna be 17...
its like getting hit by a jet..
at that speed..
so many decisions, so many worries..
is it all really worth it...
lastly..
I'm sorry...

White Lion

2009-09-15T00:35:00.000-07:00

this is officially my fav animal..

so noble and strong..

i gotta get 1 as a pet haha

Exams!!!!

2009-09-14T23:23:00.000-07:00

dammit exams coming aredy..
sad..
cant maple too much T_T..
but will study hard T_T
finals here aredy haiz..
gotta get at least 60 man..
or else i am so dead..
zzz..
i dun really get it..
but whn i see u sad..
i cant help it..
but i feel sad too..
aww man..
urghh...

Its been so long

2009-09-06T07:42:00.000-07:00

Its been so long since i blogged..
didn't blog bout my trip to Cameron,
notin bout my B'day..
haiz..
boredom..
went for MCPP 1 on Saturday and sunday..
very sleepy and tired now but it was so totally worth it ^^
I really miss you..
havent talked to you in so long..
havent seen you in 3 weeks..
sad...

CG outing

2009-08-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

Ok so today..
went to Midvalley..
haha..
reach there about 11 something..
waited till 11.20 oni saw Rebecca and Justine..
waited another 15min thn Jamie arrived...
thn went into cosmic bowl..
then Joanne arrived.
so long din bowl forgot how to dy..
1st few times gutter ball all the way = =
but got better la..
haha..
after that we went and buy tickets for movie..
we watched The Proposal...
quite cool..
and funny..
everyone should watch it..
and I still can hardly believe I was the only guy there = =..
nvm.. whatever la..
heh..
heading off to Cameron Highlands tomorrow..
crap la..
no internet there T_T...
i am so dead!!!!!
sad sad...

Hols

2009-08-23T19:21:00.000-07:00

Holidays are here..
whee...
gonna maple and dota.. and mebbe some study ^^
heh..
hope its gonna be fun..
but very damn..
i hv to go to cameron on Sat, Sun, Mon..
haiz..
gonna bore my butt off weih..

Annoying

2009-08-12T05:18:00.000-07:00

Streamyx is hell annoying keep dc dc..
stupid thing dunno do maintanence is it???
stupid idiots..
I cant wait to watch GI Joe..
looks very cool..
nothing much happening in my life, same old same old..
doing my best to train..
still need to get stronger..
i'm still too weak..
haiz..
gonna watch Ong Bak 2 now..
thanks Jesse for lending me the movies xP

Long time no update

2009-08-09T04:27:00.000-07:00

ok..
i'm back..
man..
i'm longing to just sit back and relax..
heh..
but cnt..
so many things to do, so little time..
haiz..
one of the coolest things ever..
go watch Tony Jaa..
one of the best Muay Thai Boron fighters..
man, he is good...
kinda like a street fighter...
i wanna learn T_T..
heh

Lousy day

2009-08-01T06:16:00.000-07:00

Today when went for XYZ..
stupid jam..
nearly 2 hours man...
ISA people make people anti them..
then so frigging annoying...
have to go dunno how many roads oni arrive cus of road blocks...
damn..
got there at 3.50pm = =
so frigging late...
thn went for celebration..
oni 3 cg members sat 2geda..
wth weih..
Raquel, Rebecca, and me...
so sad = =
cus Jamie had to teman her frens..
Kaylee went for a dinner thingy...
thn bfore worship end..
Raquel went off dy..
left Rebecca and me there...
talked to her..
she's quite cool.. haha..
thn went for dinner...
I hate talking to my parents so stupidly annoying...
just because I sms a lot this month..
wth la...
ask them to get me pre paid dunwan..
prepaid sms so damn much cheaper..
fine lor..
what ever..
now threaten to cut my phone..
cut lor...
useless like hell..

Exams are over

2009-07-31T07:29:00.000-07:00

Ughh..
exams are finally over..
can kick back and chill...
the tension in schoool during exam week was horrendous..
people were studying like nuts,
cramming words into their heads..
wth la...
i hate school, i hate exams...
looking forward to tomorrow so that I can chill and relax i hope...
xD..
laziness kicking in...
wahaha..

Roses colours are so cool...

2009-07-27T23:52:00.000-07:00

Red Rose

This one is the most obvious. It means "I love you." It represents romance and love.

Deep Pink

This simply means "thank you". If someone you know does something nice for you, a deep pink rose is a good way of saying "thank you".

Regular Pink

A pink rose represents happiness. It's great to give a pink rose to a partner to say, "I'm very happy with our relationship."

Light Pink

A light pink rose means "sympathy". When someone has had a loss then light pink roses is a very nice way of expressing your condolences.

White Rose

A white rose symbolizes innocence and purity. When combined with red roses (see further down), it represents "unity".

Yellow Rose

A yellow rose symbolizes friendship and caring. It's the perfect innocent gift to give to a friend or give to a loved one when you simply want to say "I care". When given to a friend it also means "I'm happy with our friendship."

Lavender Rose

A lavender rose is a symbol of "falling in love". When you give it to a person you are saying "I have fallen in love with you and am enchanted by you."

Orange Rose

An orange rose is a symbol of desire. "I desire you" or "I desire to get to know you better" is the message that orange roses send.

Black Rose

Never ever give a woman a black rose, because Hollywood has, unfortunately, made out the meaning to be "death". These aren't easy to find and some maintain that they don't actually "exist".

Blue Rose

A blue rose is very hard to reproduce or find, although some floral companies are trying to do it naturally. Others just dye them. To some a blue rose symbolizes "mystery" and to others "attaining the impossible". A blue rose given can symbolize the rarity of your partner. You have attained the impossible.

Mixture of White and Red Roses

When you deliver white and red roses together to someone, it is a symbol of unification and unity. "May we always be together as one."

LOUD!!!

2009-07-27T02:47:00.000-07:00

ok.. LOUD was quite cool.
before it started helped out in Logistics...
set up stuff..
bla bla bla..
saw the Real Ink Crew's make up and hair..
very awesome and cool...
thn at 5 LOUD started...
at the start had to play songs which were fast and up to beat...
but quite hard to get nice songs la = =...
junkyard invaders did quite an awesome job..
followed by Elite Allstars..
they're a cheerleading team...
then members of the audience had to dance to 30 seconds of Billie Jean...
then came our very own DANCE TEAM!!!
REAL INK CREW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they took the stage.. hands down...
project Gsus played a few songs...
but couldn't really hear the lyrics :(
sad...
then Moks gave the message...
the video which was showed was still very touching..
after that came the Finale...
Gsus performed viva la vida..
which rocked the auditorium..
after the whole thing talked to Rebecca bout the whole thing..
comments were it was COOL.. haha..

1 MORE DAY

2009-07-25T06:39:00.000-07:00

today went XYZ...
so cool..
Gabriel jumped off the stage haha..
wish i had recorded it..
very yeng..
anyways...
during celebration someone supposed to save seat for me and didn't save..
the certain someone..
ahem ahem...
wanna die????
lolx..
jkjk
before celebration talked with Rebecca and Brenda..
then we had to 'dump' Brenda there..
cus Rebecca went home and I had to go duty..
Sry heh..
TOMORROW IS LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!
actually i'm not that excited..
just trying to make it look exciting..
heh..
anyways..
i know i shld be studying..
but dota 1st
:P:P

whee

2009-07-24T07:37:00.000-07:00

days to

LOUD!!!

gotta resist it

2009-07-23T07:35:00.000-07:00

today in school..
during last period went out of class...
thn saw..
2 ppl fighting in my frens class sumore = =..
quite ok la..
but thn it made me want to jump in too...
but cant i promised T_T..
haizzzzz....
school gonna be the death of me man...
gonna die very soon...
just waiting for LOUD...
its in 3 DAYS!!!!!

Staus : Bored

2009-07-20T02:23:00.000-07:00

damn hell bored..
i gotta seriously start studying..
cant play a fool any longer...
or i'll really fail my exams haiz...
LOUD is coming in 6 days!!!!!!!!!
any1 excited?
I know I am...
cant wait to wear my new shirt..
its sososososoososososoososo COOL!!!
ladididumdum...

What a Day...

2009-07-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

SO in the morning woke up..
played maple for a little while = =
gawd..
thn had lunch..
bla bla bla..
went to BK class...
2 chapters in 1 day ..
wth is the teacher thinking..
went and watch LOUD rehearsal..
saw the a cheer team from HELP college..
wow!!
not bad man they all..,
thn watched Real Ink Crew..
they danced a lot better on stage ^^..
but bad news..
poor Brandon Gavin slipped and fell and hurt his back..
ouch..
that had got to hurt..
the dance is really cool...
give u guys a hint abt the starting..
you know Left 4 Dead?
the hunters..
yeah thats the hint..
after that went Jaya Jusco..
saw some clothes..
bought a long sleeve shirt for LOUD...
hope it looks OK..
i like it la..
:P..

Moody

2009-07-18T07:29:00.000-07:00

I have not been in a good mood recently..
I'm getting pissed off at some things that are not even worth it...
can't believe it at all..
my mind is going through a 100 million things now..
really...
i don't want to think any longer..
i just wanna fade away..
never exist..
never breathe this air any longer..
haiz...

any ways..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
KAYLEE!!!
and
TARA!!!
both of you older dy lor ^^
more mature..
...
sorry i cant laugh at all...

Sleepiness

2009-07-15T03:11:00.000-07:00

wow..been very sleepy past few days..
dunno why..
haha..
eyes can hardly keep open..
anyways..
Congratulations Jie..
Chee Hui Xian..
pro wor..
get 2nd place in inter house badminton competition...
'clap clap'
heh..

i've been thinking a lot lately..
some say a bit too much..
but whatever la haha..
just know that I've gotten a lot of things figurd out..
xP...

OUCH!!!

2009-07-14T04:31:00.001-07:00

dammit..
i now realize that having long fingernails are nice..
untill u smash it into a wall...
thn u scream like hell...
dammit its still hurting like hell!!
anyways on a lighter note.
i'm officially bankrupt..
no more money..
haiz..ladididumdum..
nvm la..
the thing i bought are worth it.

I dun wanna go to school anymore T_T

2009-07-14T00:38:00.000-07:00

school is really sucky...
today that stupid mariah..
look at my hair and what does she say???
jika nak rambut berfesyen, jangan datang ke sekolah..
u think i really wan come arh stupid teacher..
u think i wan see ur frigging face??
ur the ost hated teacher in our class, who wants to look at you..
damn you la...
gdf...

School, Don't u just hate it

2009-07-07T07:56:00.000-07:00

Dammit...
i am beginnig to really hate my school..
it sucks so so so so so much...
I cant believe it man...
1st they said exams on 21 july end on 24 july...
now they say its been postpone to 27july...
and LOUD is like on the 26 damn them...
how the heck am i supposed to do anything dammit...
I HATE SCHOOL!!!!!
Ho am i gona get through another year and a half of this torture...
haizzz...

Sunday

2009-07-05T07:38:00.000-07:00

today ha BK class...
heh..
the room we supposed to use was being used by someone else..
so while teacher looking for a room i sat outside with some frens talking crap...
and praying that teacher take long time to find a room haha..
in the end succedeed in wastng 40min hhaha..
so happy ^^..
after that went and saw Jamie, Jared, Ben, Sara in the gym..
went inside and chill...
haha funny la they all talk crap like anything...
thn went and watch dance practice..
the Real Ink Crew...
they'll be dancing at LOUD 2009...
everyone must come eventhough its near exam week...
just relax and come k?
thn wasted more time in church...
watched the rehearsal of Executioners song...
very cool any1 wanna watch?
its on friday, saturday and sunday...
thn eventually at 8 sumtin went home...
aaa...
facebook little while thn now blogging...
aaa... sleepiness

Movies

2009-07-04T06:48:00.000-07:00

Man I really wanna watch these two moves..
Fighting and Never Back Down...
so cool..
about street fighting and Mixed Martial Arts
so so so cool...

I miss you

2009-07-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

You were on my mind when i woke up this morning
remembering your smile
i guess the next time i'll see your face
will take a little while
i was remembering your arms around me
love the way they always feel warm
with you by my side
i completely feel no harm
i was remembering your voice
makes my heart skip a beat
but without you baby
my whole body's weak
i was remembering our times
the good and the bad
the funny times when you cheered me up
and especially the sad
remembering your eyes
how they always meet mine
remembering all the little things you do
to make my life worthwhile
i was wondering when we'll be together
just us two
i guess i'm missing you more than i usually do

this describes my feelings now

DinatyDevil

2009-07-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

This video is so touching

thank You VIC!!!
Love DD foreveer..
I will never leave

Finished

2009-06-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

I just finish reading this manga..
absolute boyfriend..
so touching...
a really great love story..
go read it..
anyways...
today migrain like hell...
stupid sun..
gonna kill me very very soon dammit..
I dunnoe what to think already..
I love you but I cant love you...
I don't want to tell u whn its too late
neither do i want to tell you whn its too early..
i'm praying that i an get a sign so that i noe exactly whn to tell you...
but the longer i wait, the sadder i become each day...

Slow = =

2009-06-27T07:19:00.000-07:00

today went DC..
had cg..
learnt how to deal with failure haha...
anyways..
been worrying about a lot aredy..
crap the stress...
i cant worry so much..
but i just hv too..
its like stuck in my brain..
haiz...
some of the reasons for worrying are personal so i wont say anything...
if wanna noe thn ask me la..
but i oni tell some ppl de la haha..
btw..
sry San Min..
cant make it to ur party..
really really really sorry ya...

TRANSFORMERS!!!!

2009-06-26T08:04:00.000-07:00

Just came back from watching Transformers...
it ROCKED!!!
I wanna watch it another 9 ties at least..
sososososososososo...
COOL!!!
All must go watch..
oherwie ur not gona be col..
wahahaha..

FUNNY!!!!

2009-06-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

today the bushes opposite my school burned...
haha..
the fire created so much smoke
so whole class went and look out the window..
a bit of excitement at least in school...
whee...
thn the guard came out ( this was whn everybody talking )
i was staring at the fire...
dunno why i am attracted to fire...
mebbe cus its hot
heh...
thn the guard went and take some branches..
wanting to snuffout the fire..
thn he walked and tripped head over heels (literally) into the longkang =_=..
so funny!!!!!
i laughed till almost whole class came and look..
thn everybody laugh...
wahhaa..
anyways...
it eventually rained heavily today...
I wanted to walk in the rain..
but parents dun allow...
sad.. haiz...
gonna end here..
all take care ya...
H1N1 still out there...

Goals

2009-06-23T00:08:00.001-07:00

I know its a bit too late.. but i still have to set some goals for this year..
Studies
Get 70+ in all subjects ( gonna be super hard)

Games
maple reach lvl 120+ (ShadowsDK)

Life
workout everyday.. (I'm getting fat)
Get a girl in my life (optional, but I don't mind either way)

heh..
thats about it i guess for now...

updated

2009-06-22T02:29:00.000-07:00

eventually I'm loggingagain..
I as too lzy too sick and too tired too blog for the past week...
anyways..
this i had to blog..
din't go to school today..
sick again. haiz..
thn had this dream..
quite cool..
and i have never dreamnt of this before..
but someone appeared in my dreams..
never expected that..
so suddenly..
I will remembr tis dream forever..
heh..

...

2009-06-17T06:16:00.000-07:00

Dammit..
after so long oni my laptop revived...
happineesssssssss....
and sadness.
dunno y getting sick like anything..
i hate getting sick.
its annoying..
seriouslyly...
aaa..
friggin headache..

Spinning

2009-06-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

havent blogged much these past few days..
its been to boring..
but I've been able to think some things through..
so my mind is now clear as crystal..
i can figure out why i did it...
but sometimes i cant help but wonder what wld happen if i did things differently at that time..
If I had did something another way..
i cant help but wonder..
there are things that i regret..
and some that I am proud of..
and somethings I just cant get through..
I'm still wondering why my heart which was supposed to be as hard as diamond..
shattered into a million pieces this year..
really dunno...
Sometimes I just wish I could just crush all my emotions and not use them at all..
especially the strongest 1 Love..
unfortunately i cant do that so will just hv to try and survive with these emotions..
heh..
somehow thinking all these things through really calmed me down a lot..
crap I need to cheer up...
or else I'm just gonna drown in the shadows again.
which is something I don't really want..
its not fun..
and LOUD is round the corner..
seriously gonna be fun..
anyone wanna come? haha

LOUD 2007 and 2008

2009-06-06T18:53:00.000-07:00

Just realized i uploaded 2 same vids...
crappy..
anyways here's the real one's

Tiring day (yesterday)

2009-06-06T18:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterady was 1 word tiring...
went out at 7 came back at 11..
so sleepy whn i came back didn't even hv energy to blog..
so now I will blog =)=)..
went out to MCCC as normal..
duty bla bla bla..
routine things la...
thn went out for lunch with Jesse..
Happy Birthday Jesse!!!!
came back went for cg...
had some seriously yummy sweets which Kaylee brought back from Canada..
Thank You Kaylee!!!
and you remembered to get me maple leaf..
haha..
after that, went for a wedding dinner..
saw Chee Meng there...
thn talk crap vth him.. = =
(I noe ur reading this) haha...
thn Moses oso came..
apparently we all still DOTA...
yay..
so we decided one day we will go out to DOTA..
and Ping-Pong..
hope I still remember how to play..
heh..
then what else interesting happened..
erm.
not much I guess...
Oh..
but I learned this quote..
so cool..
[I don't want to date a bunch of people, I just want to date you]

LOUD 2009

2009-06-05T07:54:00.000-07:00

PROJECT GSUS!!
MUST COME!!!!!!!

2nd day of MCCC

2009-06-05T07:18:00.000-07:00

Abt the same la..
but a bit more fun i think..
heh..
still very tiring..
no energy dy de...
sleepiness..
whn came back wth..
no electricity..
had to endure till like 9.45 i think..
so hot,..
can die..
and i wanted my air con cus so tired...
aaaaaa
at least now its back on heh...

MCCC

2009-06-04T07:26:00.000-07:00

So cool..
and tiring = =..
went to Dream Centre today at 8am..
wow..
so tired...
after duty headed to sports centre crap with some of them..
thn Hannah arrived crap vth her even worse..
she even take sugar and creamer to throw at me = =..
lameness...
so childish ( praying u dun see this )
haha...
thn help out making coffee...
unfortunately I don't drink coffee...
haiz...
sadness..
after tea break had to prep for lunch..
we made yummy ice lemon tea...
so nice and cold..
yum..
thn when sudenly need ice for just 1 cup..
we discover ice all frozen aredy...
crap..
and I did a dumb mistake..
i punched the ice hoping to break it...
and didn't even dent it..
WTH!!!!
ice was harder than the wall...
and again..
WTH!!!!!
even cause my knuckles to bleed...
stupid ice...
in the end use stick to break it...
sienz..
went home at 5.45..
but reach home 7..
thn go tuition..
blog so simple-ing cus too tired...
no energy left aredy...

...

2009-06-03T06:38:00.000-07:00

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answer, enter yours, and tag twenty people. Use the first letter of you name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers, you cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/ girl name
question.

1. What is you name : Teo Peak Erne
2. A four Letter Word : Time
3. A boy's Name : Toh Yik Hong
4. A girl's Name : Teo Peak Yiin
5. An occupation : Toilet cleaner
6. A color : Tblack.. heh
7. Something you'll wear : T-shirt
8. A food : Tandoori
9. A place : Tokyo
10. A reason for being late : Taking my time
11. Something you'd shout : Tag?????
12. A movie title : Terminator
13. Something you drink : Twater
14. A musical group : Twins ( where they a musical groupp????)
15. An animal : Tiger
16. A street name : Tajakjkalaj ( i give up)
17. A type of car : Tmw
18. The title of a song : Teardrops On My Guitar

Tags..
No1 ..
I'm too kind xD

Holidays.. Bored

2009-06-03T06:18:00.000-07:00

haiz...
holidays nothing to do all day long..
been dota-ing + maple-ing + sherlock holmes-ing 24/7..
gonna die very soon..
good bye my world..
aaa.
at least MCCC comin..
gonna chill..
drink coke tilli get sugar rush..
haha..
thn gonna do crazy stuff.. yay..
thn gonna die whn it ends..
haiz..

Boredom

2009-06-01T05:51:00.000-07:00

Now I remember why I love and hate the holidays..
I love it cause I dunnid to go to school..
I hate it cause its boring!!!!!
urghh...
every day sitting at home like that..
I'm gonna rot myself into a zombie...
aaaa...
I nid the fresh air,
better if it wld rain..
I love walking in the rain...
pitter patter on me...
thats the most fun ^^...
I love watching the storm the most..
its the most fun...
nothing can stand in the path of the Storm and survive..
haha..
i gonna be dead aaa...
havent done tuition math hw..
crap 2molo gotta do..
or teacher might kill me...
heh

1 DAY CAMP!

2009-05-30T03:00:00.000-07:00

Today went for a 1 day camp in SBU..
Very fun..
haha..
havent been that high in many months..
heh..
there were quite a few games..
3 which required we get wet..
= =.
haha.
we were split onto quite a few groups and named after martial arts group from the world of martial arts heh..
I was split into a group oso..
obviously..
started by a performance by the facilitators, thn by a dance (or was it the other way round )
thn games started..
our poor facilitator..
Suet Ling...
kena bully by us gao gao..
haha..
sorry la but we want to hv fun oni de ma ^^..
out of 5 games we actually lost 3 = =
but we won 2..
heh.. still ok ok ba.
thn after games went for lunch..
during lunch I actually went to sleep..
too tired..
and a certain someone woke me up with a slap on my back = =..
painful!!!!
haha..
thn there was another performance and thn games again..
the games were to be knight or something..
refer to below photo to see what i mean..
thn use a balloon to kill ppl..
1st round we played..
they say we cheated...
2nd round they said our horse took the flag..
3rd round.. was the best..
Suet Ling kill 2 aredy..
still wan to bend backwards and try to kill another 1..
so pro..
I salute you ahahah..
but she got killed..
oh well..
win some lose some..
thn again say we lose sienz dy..
all so tired..
so send the commander out to fight among themselves..
we just sit back and watch..
and eventually..
still our group win..
end result =
0:4
u waste so much time make us tired for?
in the end is u still lose oso..
heh..
sumore the commander lose till can drop off the horse = =
so fish de..
thn after that had prize giving ceremony and closing ceremony...
took pics with group..
thn parents came so went back dy..

This is the way the horses have to carry people = =

Group pics our fav poses haha

Us bullying our facilitator Suet Ling

the poor girl in the middle heh

All got hand sign except me = =

All standing yay

And lastly wanna thank some people...
Tks Zun Zen for inviting me..

Tks Yuen Ping for 'forcing' me to go...

Tks Suet Ling for letting us bully you and helping find the clues to games even when we lazy to find...
LAST BUT NOT LEAST

TKS to my group having u all as group members was really FUN!!!..

hope to see u guys and girls again haha

Ultimate Power Group

2009-05-29T07:16:00.001-07:00

Just got back from leisure mall...
went and watch the performances by ultimate power group..
quite cool..
was there with frens..
to support the group FRIENDZ..
eventhough i was forced there by a certain someone!!!!.
and made me the only guy out of all the girls!!!!
anyways..
Friendz sang really well..
nice mix..
very cool..
haha...
I can oni support them otherwise a certain someone will kill me again...
then I'd die again..
heh..
super tired now..
want my bed and sleep..
tomorow not gonna be online..
gonna be at a 1 day camp thingy..
hope I can wake up heh..

Holidays are boring

2009-05-29T04:13:00.000-07:00

So boring..
woke up today straight on com watch
Conan and the Spirit of Baker Street..
quite cool..
Jack The Ripper!!!
killed 5 women and got away with it..
and guess what it was a girl!!
haha..
anyways ..
play few rounds of dota, maple..
thn read manga..
Shaman King!!!
now getting ready go leisure mall..
cus jie ask me go = =..
waiting for tomorow oni..
a one day camp..
gonna get bullied gao gao..
sienz dy heh..

SCREAM!!!!!

2009-05-28T04:26:00.000-07:00

I HATE ADD MATH!!!!!!!!!!
ITS HARD!!!
especially since today learn new topic..
SO SO SO SO SO SO HARD!!!
After add math exams I actually screamed
DAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNN!!!!!!
cus of a certain someone who told me i got a wrong...
= =
heh..
enough rantings..
=P..
anyways I'm hungry = =
crappy...
Holidays are boring when the internet friggingly disconnects every few min..
so annoying argghhhh...
heh..
no fun dy...

BTW...
WELCOME BACK KAYLEE...
(you owe me maple leaf real de)..
chances of u seeing this are slim but whatever la..
haha..

WHEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-27T04:22:00.000-07:00

Last day of exams over..
WHAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!
going crazy..
HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!
LETS START THE PARTY!!!!
open champagne, coke, any drink u can find..
Holidays are here YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOT DY WAHAHA....
Going to sleep and play and eat oni...
no thinking of studying at all
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........

DEAD!!!!!!

2009-05-26T06:30:00.000-07:00

Today add math..
die dy die dy..
I cant survive..
T_____________T
so hard...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
can fail dy...
sob sob...
crappy thing..
anyways..
tomorow last day of EXAMS!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!
thn can sit at home dy.. WHEEEE!!!!
haha..
sry sot dy..
too much stress..

Mastering...

2009-05-25T01:18:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was so pissed...
laptop charger dunno wat happen suddenly cant charge..
thn tell my dad he say my own fault..
so mad..
so cant do anything online..
read my book Deception..
its really a good book..
go read it..
when finish was only 11.30 nothing to do..
so started trainin on Fuu..
mastered it in 1 hr..
not bad..
made my dad come running becus the sound when training was so loud..
lalala..
heh..
ADD MATHS TOMOROW..
GAWD...
SO DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cool

2009-05-23T18:53:00.000-07:00

This is a new technique that I must learn no matter what..
I don't care how long it takes me...
FuuRinKaInZanRai
Fuu- Swift like the Wind
Rin- Quiet like the Forest
Ka- Invade like the Fire
In- Unpredictable like the Shadows
Zan- Immovable like the Mountain
Rai- Strike like Lightning
holidays I will perfect this move...

Cool day

2009-05-23T05:43:00.000-07:00

Today woke up read manga...
haha..
then went out..
went and find my godmother..
havent seen her in like dunno..
5 or 6 years?
haha..
eventually saw her..
she didn't recognize me at 1st thn suddenly realize..
so funny...
heh...
after so long eventually saw her again..
happy liao..
missed her haha...

Congrats to Cheetara, Michelle, Hannah, Sara, Sereena and the rest of my frens who got baptized and became members of DUMC..
welcome to the family..
haha..
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
cool heh..
anyways 31 of May goin to 1 Utama to watch
deng deng deng deng..
curtain rises
NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2
yay..
anyone wanna come? haha..
gonna be fun..

No school!!!!!!

2009-05-22T06:54:00.000-07:00

Yay...
today din go school..
at home sleep = = heh..
dota and maple almost whole day hardly studied..
crap I am so gonna fail add math..
heh...
wah I was in such a bad mood..
play 4 games of dota with Chiew Voon and Kar hou..
4 rounds host leaver = =...
sienzz...
at least next round host din leave..
lucky...
now still dota-ing..
mus win again..
haha..

Math = =

2009-05-21T05:36:00.000-07:00

Today frigging math exams...
ok ok la...
and again..
section B suppose do 4 questions I went and do all again = =...
crap...
hv to learn to read it properly ..
haha...
crappy... or It'll be a fatal mistake in SPM..
Gawd!!!!
tomorow not going to school..
BC oni. heh..
good luck to those who take BC la..
get A ya.
no A dun take haha..

Boom Boom Pow

2009-05-20T03:00:00.000-07:00

Urghh..
boom boom pow has been stuck in my frigging head almost whole day aredyy...
thanks to a certain someone...
pjk today was easy..
very surprising..
sivik oso quite ok finished in 15min heh...
so slept the rest of the way....
tomorow math hope i can pass nicely..
no more below 70 i hope...
today the frigging pengawas came and ask me to go out cus of long hair..
what the heck la...
if my hair long thn means the sky drop loo...
I'll show you what is long after hols oso dun cut..
LC you..
what can you do...
bloody stupid pengawas... (no offense to my pengawas frens)..
heh..
I got the Boom Boom Pow!!!!!!
haha

DEAD!!!!

2009-05-19T04:49:00.000-07:00

If I said Bio was hard..
well means physics paper 3 was hell..
was like so blur..
I look at it..
crap.. cant do even one...
stressness..
aaaaaaaaa....
anyways today was an ok day...
kinda boring.
I wan my DOTA!!!
heh..
tomorow exams on PJK and Sivik...
PJK teacher havent even taught 1 single thing..
another subject that will fail...
bye bye...
another F...
Sivik..
what the heck!!!
semangat patriotisme their head...
its not like that gonna help me in my job next time = =..
cant they swap it to literature or EST?..
stupid school...

One of the coolest songs ever

2009-05-18T04:50:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0v3d6SFcDys

All over again

2009-05-18T02:27:00.000-07:00

I guess after so long I still miss blogging..
its the only place to let lose and de-stress..
haha..
Anyways on to the evrnts today..
Bio was a killer..
I can just jump off the building now..
Form 3 work came out ok..
So friggin hard..
I cant remember even 1 piece of info..
crap..
So dead..
haha..
tomorow physics paper 3 gonna be even worse...
pray I can pass..
Wish me luck kays..
LOL...